tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25552445427451470742024-03-04T23:52:34.022-08:00Living Life with Multiple SclerosisChronicles the day-to-day challenges of an ordinary person with an extraordinary disease, multiple sclerosis. Includes discussions about healthcare, disability issues, pharmaceutical companies and more.Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.comBlogger45125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-83696638615437922402021-06-25T10:47:00.025-07:002021-08-27T15:45:00.366-07:00‘Tis The Season<span xmlns=""><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhDJhbMPMCQ6_wk7a_WetyKbar4UHNr7ExJ8HfEMtGjGccWBKqhSgYAG_z2FGbEnakUbw885jPR_MtkYOaCUCfLeYd6-2pcAA4Sm-ADX_S7tq-Nc7K6PkqLp1nb-UQvyusxRnUYb4rfPWoo/" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img alt="" data-original-height="237" data-original-width="213" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhDJhbMPMCQ6_wk7a_WetyKbar4UHNr7ExJ8HfEMtGjGccWBKqhSgYAG_z2FGbEnakUbw885jPR_MtkYOaCUCfLeYd6-2pcAA4Sm-ADX_S7tq-Nc7K6PkqLp1nb-UQvyusxRnUYb4rfPWoo/" width="216" /></a></div><br /><i>Oops, this post was from 12/2011. I was experimenting recently with adding graphics and accidentally republished it</i></span><div><span xmlns=""><br /></span></div><div><span xmlns="">In previous years, I've given tips for people with chronic illness on how to survive the holidays. This year, I've decided to do something different. Here's my list of things that well-family members and friends need to know about their person with MS or another chronic illness.
<p></p><ul><li>We want to do everything that we used to and we don't want to disappoint everyone if we can't. Scaling back festivities makes things easier for everyone.
</li><li>"I'm tired" means I'm tired, really tired and need to rest. It's difficult to admit this, so believe it when you hear it.
</li><li>We are our own toughest critic. Let us vent if we need to about our shortcomings, even if they are to our fault.
</li><li>Be mindful that the holidays can be hard for us because they remind us of any changes in our condition over the past year.
</li></ul><p>It may be helpful to consider the chronic illness as an unwanted guest. Sure, you try to make it comfortable but you don't encourage it to stay. Make sure to keep the holidays about friends, family and fun. The chronic illness isn't going anywhere soon unfortunately.
</p><p>Best wishes for a Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!</p></span></div>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-26475490800411589002011-03-11T12:38:00.001-08:002021-06-25T11:02:53.891-07:00What’s In a Name?<span xmlns=""><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjeDWE6tUxii1DW3aGVCXBDUh2ReECR1XzrqeeDbO9iq4DmwWKU9QDR7tjGUKFZO1rBZA8Dwr5H4FrtWGNfTMHUCFM7AeO3vmMNtDUkJHh5EJXuZkwnG6_retKc-I0hPgbGMdkJ8zBxa5nk/s860/question+marks.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="517" data-original-width="860" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjeDWE6tUxii1DW3aGVCXBDUh2ReECR1XzrqeeDbO9iq4DmwWKU9QDR7tjGUKFZO1rBZA8Dwr5H4FrtWGNfTMHUCFM7AeO3vmMNtDUkJHh5EJXuZkwnG6_retKc-I0hPgbGMdkJ8zBxa5nk/s320/question+marks.png" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div>Multiple sclerosis is a disease that affects each person differently. The majority of the population has relapsing-remitting disease. This means that the person has attacks and remissions. I started out that way, but over time I progressed. At first, it was relapsing-progressive and now it can be categorized as secondary -progressive. Many people with relapsing-remitting will eventually switch to secondary progressive. I just got there sooner.
<p></p><p>How your disease is categorized is actually very important. Because most people with MS have relapsing-remitting, the drugs available currently are for that type only. The goal of treatment is to extend the amount of time someone has relapsing-remitting, preventing the person from evolving into secondary -progressive. I am pleased to report that there are six drugs currently available for relapsing-remitting MS. However, there is only one FDA-approved treatment for any form of progressive MS and I have already maxed out on dosage. Without the approval of the FDA, insurance companies consider using the available drugs as experimental and they won't cover their significant cost.
</p><p>At least I didn't have the most sinister form of MS, primary –progressive. That's bad and the generative from the start. For a number of years, I was able to be on interferon, the treatment for relapsing-remitting MS. The reason the research community has focused on relapsing-remitting is because there can be significant, positive results. These might be the number of lesions on an MRI or an increase in the ability to walk. It is harder to document improvement was someone in my situation. At this point, it would take a miracle to get me out of my wheelchair and walking again.
</p><p>So, my doctors and I are left to treat symptoms. There have been significant improvements in treating symptoms. For spasticity in my legs, I have a titanium pump that delivers medicine directly into my spinal fluid. For spasticity in my arm, there are botox injections. I also take a large variety of drugs and supplements throughout the day. I've never been a big fan of labels anyway, so I stubbornly go on living life. </p></span><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg7zuSExi5VC_v-GfPXyuXQ4AWj5yYtkmHk7JN_L6nuCp3t476ePjJFrrtFkAVtUNd9ruTny2jJMqFePU4-UBruEIy0TUjo4ZO8kB4XXfhEn76_GNT5A5tXwXlMsC6HZ7L68EcL51EqTJeM/s860/question+marks.png" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="517" data-original-width="860" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg7zuSExi5VC_v-GfPXyuXQ4AWj5yYtkmHk7JN_L6nuCp3t476ePjJFrrtFkAVtUNd9ruTny2jJMqFePU4-UBruEIy0TUjo4ZO8kB4XXfhEn76_GNT5A5tXwXlMsC6HZ7L68EcL51EqTJeM/s320/question+marks.png" width="320" /></a></div><br />Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-314440402396119472010-11-04T12:57:00.001-07:002021-06-25T11:19:20.401-07:00Embrace Me<span xmlns=""><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQdp-2SjftQK2UhlK8nh-Pt1BMdaEVi8-m6Pln88IWUTa37kkI2uaGEdUZ3Yuva7FRXwZxWDckU7e5yauU49Lm2pL9pRPkqZrWNx-VfvlWOenZCaRQwUYlq-toHmZ-jKq43Q3YY8797mYE/s278/hug.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="278" data-original-width="210" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgQdp-2SjftQK2UhlK8nh-Pt1BMdaEVi8-m6Pln88IWUTa37kkI2uaGEdUZ3Yuva7FRXwZxWDckU7e5yauU49Lm2pL9pRPkqZrWNx-VfvlWOenZCaRQwUYlq-toHmZ-jKq43Q3YY8797mYE/s0/hug.jpg" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><p>I'm not a very affectionate person, but I miss real hugs. Wheelchair hugs are a poor substitute. Real hugs are natural, spontaneous and can be initiated by either party. Wheelchair hugs, on the other hand, are awkward, planned and have to be initiated by the standing party. The only way I know to initiate a hug is to say, "come over here and give me a hug." I can't just go up to someone and give them a hug.
</p><p>Here's how it typical wheelchair hug goes. A person comes up to me, leans down and over me while I reach up and lean forward. The taller the person is, the more awkward the hug. Wheelchair hugs tend to be quick because of the uncomfortable position. Then, the biped straightens up and I strain my neck upwards. No wonder wheelchair designers have been working to come up with chairs that enable people to stand or at least be at eye level.
</p><p>Until such devices become widely available, I will continue to live my life sitting down. After all, a wheelchair hug is better than none at all.</p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-19900550264830663002010-09-30T12:23:00.001-07:002010-09-30T12:23:35.858-07:00Raindrops Keep Falling<span xmlns=''><p>I try to avoid going out in the rain. No, I don't think I'll melt but I do know that I and the person pushing me can get very wet. I have not been able to figure out a way to stay dry in a wheelchair. Here are some things I've tried.<br /></p><ul><li>Umbrellas -These don't work for the passenger or the pusher. If I hold the umbrella, it gets in the way of the person pushing me. If the pusher holds an umbrella, I usually get the runoff and it's very hard to steer a wheelchair with one hand. Umbrella hats are just dumb-looking, and only keep your head dry.<br /></li><li>Rain slicker –This doesn't work for the passenger because there is run off from the slicker onto the lap. Also, if it doesn't cover your bottom you end up sitting in a wet puddle. A slicker is a good idea for the pusher.<br /></li><li>Rain poncho –This doesn't work either because it's hard to find your arms for transferring. It does solve the runoff problem however.<br /></li><li>Stay home –This is the best option, but I can't always cancel appointments just because it's raining. Fortunately, many doctors' offices have a drop-off with an overhang. Since many of my appointments are medical in nature, I don't have to worry about the weather as much.<br /></li></ul><p>I know an engineering professor who assigns this problem to his students. Their ideas are clever, but impractical. The rain became my enemy when I was still walking with assistive devices. I learned fairly quickly to give up umbrellas. It was hard to walk with a cane in one hand and an umbrella in the other, especially when trying to open a door. Using a walker, holding an umbrella was impossible. That's when I started wearing rain slickers and ponchos, anything with the hood. It might not have been fashionable, but it kept me dry. I certainly wasn't going to run through the rain.<br /></p><p>I invite my readers to share their suggestions to this problem. In the meantime, if you see someone struggling with a cane, walker or wheelchair on a rainy day, take a moment and ask if they need any assistance. I assure you that your help will be greatly appreciated if there is a door that needs opening. If you want to reach me, I'm waiting for the rain to stop</p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-71080207978316416572010-09-11T15:28:00.001-07:002010-09-11T15:28:47.163-07:00Talk Is Cheap and Easy<span xmlns=''><p>Recently, I purchased a new PC. One of my motivating factors was my need for a faster processor to run speech-recognition software. I am pleased to report that the new machine is handling the task quite well and I'm not one to push products, but Microsoft has done a great job of improving the software included in their Windows 7 operating system. I wager to say that it is almost as good as the additional software I have had to purchase in the past.<br /></p><p>If you want to try speech-recognition software, here are a few tips.<br /></p><ul><li>Take the time to go through any included tutorials. You'll be glad that you did.<br /></li><li>Do not look at the screen when you dictate and try to speak at a normal pace and tone. A good model is a newscaster reading from a teleprompter.<br /></li><li>Don't expect for everything to go perfectly the first time. Start slowly and gradually increase your speed.<br /></li><li>Remember that the computer is only as smart as you are. If you aren't making any sense, the computer just puts down what it hears.<br /></li></ul><p> With this new technology, I have little excuse not to blog more regularly. Having speech-recognition software is like having your own personal stenographer taking down your every word. It's empowering for anyone, but particularly for me. My fine motor skills may have diminished, but my mouth works just fine. I'll be talking to you soon.</p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-28820444088159953582010-08-17T12:25:00.001-07:002010-08-17T12:25:58.796-07:00Starting Over<span xmlns=''><p>When I began this blog, my goal was to write every other week. That soon became every month and then every couple of months. Now, I haven't made an entry since November. It's not that I have nothing to say; I just worry that I say the same things over and over again. Maybe, that's the point. Living with MS can be monotonous and tedious. For example, I see the same doctors every three months which leads to insurance billing problems every three months. By the time that I get everything straightened out, it's time to start the cycle all over again.<br /></p><p>The real reason I've returned to the blog is because I was reminded that there are people out there dealing with MS issues for the first time. These people want guidance, information and maybe even a laugh or two. With the 13<sup>th</sup> anniversary of my diagnosis approaching quickly, I feel that is my duty to continue to spread the word about living with MS. After all, I never know who is out there in cyberspace reading my blog and gaining some insight into their situation.<br /></p><p>So, I consider this a new beginning for my blog and encourage all of you to join me as I continue to battle MS, the healthcare system and society in general. I'll stop writing when my disease is cured, the healthcare system is fixed, and society has evened the playing field for the disabled. In other words, I'll keep on writing, sporadic though it may be.</p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-33919812467449261832009-11-20T12:52:00.001-08:002009-11-20T12:52:17.989-08:00Booby Trap<span xmlns=''><p>I went for my annual screening mammogram on the very day that new guidelines were announced. According to the revision, I don't have to have the test done until age 50 and then only every other year. I choose to ignore this suggestion and continue doing what I've been doing as long as my insurance company continues to pay for it. It is my personal belief that women with MS have a responsibility to be vigilant about routine testing. Our disease brings enough uncertainty and I like the peace of mind knowing that nothing else is wrong. So, I am willing to deal with the awkwardness and discomfort of getting a mammogram.<br /></p><p>You expect that the medical community would be better equipped to interact with the disabled than they actually are. The following scenario happened to me the first time I went for a screening.<br /></p><p> Tech: Miss Mayo, could you come with me?<br /></p><p><em>I follow the tech in my wheelchair, my aide pushing me. I am handed a gown and given the instructions to put it on with the opening in the front. The tech returns several minutes later.<br /></em></p><p> Tech: Can you leave the wheelchair over in the corner there and stand here by the machine?<br /></p><p> Me: No, I can't stand, let alone walk.<br /></p><p> Tech: Well, I don't know how we are going to be able to do this.<br /></p><p> Me: I'm going to have my aide wheel me over to the machine and you're going to lower it down.<br /></p><p> Tech: I'm not sure that it goes that low.<br /></p><p> Me: There's only one way to find out.<br /></p><p> Tech: Is there any way that you can raise up the chair?<br /></p><p> Me (inner voice): Sure, I have a magical, levitating chair just like Dr. Xavier in X-Men. Me (audible): No, it doesn't.<br /></p><p> Tech: And you can't stand for even a minute?<br /></p><p> Me: That would take a miracle since I am a paraplegic.<br /></p><p><em>Somehow, we are able to get the films that we need although the tech keeps bumping my knees into the machine while adjusting me. My aide also gets to don a lead apron so that I can remain pressed into the machine as it squishes me. I wait for the films to be read while I'm there in case anything needs to be retaken. It's a better use of time for me to wait around vs. having to return another day and do it all over again.<br /></em></p><p>As unpleasant and ridiculous as that experience was, I like to think that I might have made it better for the next person in a wheelchair who has a mammogram done at that facility. I guess I appreciate that people give me the benefit of the doubt and think I have more mobility that I actually do, but I wish they would assume the worst and not make me feel bad when I can't stand or even move my legs. After all, I'm actually not trying to be difficult for a change. Stubborn, disabled people like me must keep challenging the medical community to provide us with the same care as the bipeds. I know that as our population ages, there'll be a lot more people with mobility impairments. Until then, I will continue to earn the nickname, "hell on wheels."<br /></p><p><em> </em></p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-18732984919015159892009-11-17T12:32:00.001-08:002009-11-17T12:32:59.100-08:00Band of Bothers<span xmlns=''><p>Spasticity is a common MS symptom that manifests itself an uncommon ways. For example, I experience a band of tightness around my rib cage most every night. It's as if someone took a belt and pulled it as tightly as possible. I can actually feel the difference between the muscles in spasm and the normal ones surrounding it.<br /></p><p>My neurologists theorize that the problem is caused by thoracic lesions on my spinal cord that are too small to show up on an MRI. From my perspective, I don't care as much about why it happens as I do about how to remedy the situation. The good thing is that it seldom happens all day. I notice it most when I'm trying to fall asleep at night. My approach is to combine traditional and alternative medicine to help make me comfortable. I take 20 mg of an anti-spasmodic medication called Baclofen along with 50 mg of an older, anti-depressant called amitriptyline that reduces neuropathic pain. On top of this, I add deep breathing and relaxation techniques. By trying to slowly expand and contract my rib cage, I can get my muscles to stop contracting as hard.<br /></p><p>General books on MS that I've come across describe this phenomenon as the "MS hug." I can assure you that it doesn't feel like any hug I've ever had. I am thankful that mine is lower than where the bottom of my bra sits. Other women have told me how awful that is. They avoid wearing their boulder holders unless they're out in public. It's bad enough to have MS, but who wants to explain that your boobs are saggy because wearing a bra is far too painful. That reminds me that I had a mammogram yesterday, but that's a whole other story. </p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-42628750103652417162009-09-28T12:49:00.001-07:002009-09-28T13:57:46.235-07:00A Walk in the Crowds<span xmlns=""><p><em>Perhaps he [the patient] has the happy kind of MS with walks, balloons and smiling people being pushed around in wheelchairs. House, MD<br /></em></p><p>The MS Walk was this weekend and I went to turn in the money I had collected and be pushed around. Even when I was still walking, the event route was too long for me so I ended up greeting people at the finish line. I felt like a fraud, especially the year that I my walker and I ended up on the MS Walk brochure and poster. It really underscored the irony of the event.<br /></p><p>I have been involved with the MS Walk for almost as long as I've lived with the disease. It is definitely an opportunity for people watching. I can pick out the newly diagnosed with their family, friends and coworkers easily. They approach the task with great determination and enthusiasm. They believe they can fight MS and win because they haven't experienced the worst the disease has to offer. Over time, they'll discover that MS is a lifetime commitment and the Walk is an annual event. It's hard to come back year after year knowing that your disease is slowly progressing and there is a slim chance of a cure within your lifetime. Personally, I have amassed a lovely collection of tee shirts and other paraphernalia and these people will find themselves in the same situation. That's not being negative; it's just being practical.<br /></p><p>Another smaller group that stands out at these events is the "MS Victims." They are joyless souls slumped in wheelchairs with atrophied arms and legs in uncomfortable-looking positions. They are unkempt and disheveled with dirty hair, teeth and shapeless clothing. They never smile and their eyes are cast downward not making contact with anyone as if they are ashamed of their condition. Unlike the newly diagnosed, there aren't a lot of people with them, only someone to push the wheelchair. Statistically people with MS are supposed to have a near-average lifespan, but these people look as if they are not long for this world. If their appearance is any indication of their quality of life, an end to their suffering seems welcome.<br /></p><p>As for me, I can't share the overwhelming optimism of the newly diagnosed or the fatalism of the victims. I go to these events to be myself. I think that it's important for the able-bodied participants to see somebody like me coping while retaining my personality. My condition has given me a lot more joke material. I revel in seeing people's reactions when I yell something like, "move over, cripple coming through." When people compliment me on my purple wheelchair, I love to say that I think it is important to accessorize. After an encounter with me, I know that people have to rethink their preconceptions of the disabled. Just because my legs are weak doesn't mean that my personality isn't strong.</p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-86073718678653977142009-06-30T12:29:00.001-07:002009-06-30T12:29:51.752-07:00The Procrastinator<span xmlns=''><p>Here is my contest entry that I submitted twenty minutes too late. The prize was a Kindle 2 and three years of free software updates. Oh, well.<br /></p><p>Dragon to the Rescue<br /></p><p>Damsels in distress are usually rescued by knights in shining armor, but my hero is a dragon. Dragon Naturally Speaking has enabled me to continue using my computer in spite of a progressive disability. I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis (MS) twelve years ago and my disease has slowly taken away my mobility and independence. Because of MS, I can no longer walk, work or stand and my fine motor skills are also affected. Typing has become particularly difficult because I find myself only able to use one finger of one hand quite often. This is okay if I am just checking emails or surfing the web but when I want to do more, it's Dragon to the rescue.<br /></p><p>With my trusty Dragon, I can reply to my emails, participate in social networking sites such as FaceBook, manage my family's website, solicit donations for the MS walk and even keep a blog about living with MS. Also, I am a political activist writing to my senators and congressmen about legislation that affects me and everyone else living with the disease. I could not possibly do all these things if I had to rely on my diminishing typing skills. <br /></p><p>Dragon helps me stay connected to my friends, family and the world. I can't imagine my life without it. In this age where technology is creating smaller and smaller devices, I often feel left out because I can't use them. Dragon allows me to fully participate in the online world despite my physical limitations. I am no longer a "damsel in distress." I am an empowered woman riding through cyberspace on my mighty dragon!</p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-2685194597833230562009-06-10T13:53:00.001-07:002009-06-10T13:53:37.648-07:00Aide-ing and Abetting<span xmlns=''><p>Yes, I've neglected my blog lately but I have a very good reason, I'm breaking in a new personal care aide. Let's just say that things are not going very well. What I had hoped was new-job jitters has turned out to be standard operating procedure for this aide. Safety is a fundamental part of a successful client-aide relationship and after being dropped on three separate occasions, I do not feel safe. Once again today, I found myself on the bathroom floor calling my husband to rescue me. Fortunately no one was hurt, but enough is enough. I feel that I've been more than fair with this woman and if she cannot perform the basic duties of the job, then I need to find someone else. I didn't enjoy the interviewing and screening process I had to go through, but I'm willing to do it again. <br /></p><p>Making me less willing to try and make things work with my current employee is her manner when interacting with me. For example, I wear paper or disposable underwear, not "diapers." I also don't pee-pee or boo-boo; I have to go to the bathroom to use the toilet. It's bad enough that I need help with basic bodily functions. I don't like being treated like a three-year old. After all, my mind still works pretty well; it's my body that has betrayed me.<br /></p><p>The National MS Society does have an informative brochure on hiring help at home, but it focuses more on the psychological issues of having to admit that you need help. I am way beyond that stage. I need to know how to find and retain qualified aides. You would think that in this economy it would be easy to find someone, but there is a national nursing shortage. Unless you can offer a lot of money, it's hard to find someone.<br /></p><p>It is very difficult for a control freak like me to deal with a situation like this. I am continually frustrated by my need to rely on others for everything. The knowledge that I have lost my independence forces me to be patient in ways I didn't think possible. It even makes me try to endure less-than-perfect care because it's better than nothing. I have to admit though that I must draw the line when my safety or dignity is compromised and this time that line has definitely been crossed.</p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-74308349940260813312009-05-01T12:35:00.001-07:002009-05-01T12:35:29.502-07:00April Showers<span xmlns=''><p>My new aide was doing okay until Wednesday. Wednesday was one of my shower days and despite earlier successes transferring me from the shower chair to my wheelchair, this time I wasn't as lucky. The aide didn't exactly drop me, but I didn't make it to the wheelchair either. Instead, she ended up sliding me to the floor when she couldn't get me in the chair. There I was on the floor and naked of course like most people are when they come out of the shower. No one was hurt, but there was the dilemma of how to get me up and there was no way that my aide was going to do that without help.<br /></p><p>If there was ever a time that I just wanted to leave my body, this was one of them. I'm lying there naked on the floor and trying to keep my aide calm while I think of a solution. Shouldn't I have been the one who was upset? Anyway, I decided that the best course of action was to call my husband at work, have him come home and get me off the floor. Now my aide is really freaking out because she has not met my husband and this is not the way that she wanted to do it. By this point, I've decided that she really doesn't have a say in how we precede. I have her give me the phone and I dial up my husband while staring of the ceiling. When he answers, I calmly explain that I need him to come home because I ended up on the floor after showering. I emphasize that I am not hurt, but don't want to spend the rest of the day in my current position and location. <br /></p><p>Doug comes home and finds me right where I said I'd be, then he takes over. Just like me, he's not really listening to whatever my aide thinks we should do because she's the one who created this mess in the first place. He decides that the best way to handle it is for him to get me up and then she can slide the chair underneath me. I assured Doug that we could take it from there because I just roll on the bed to get my clothes on. He seemed a little reluctant, but he left and the rest of my day was mercifully uneventful.<br /></p><p>I should explain that I have a fairly small bathroom with a narrow door opening and it lacks a roll-in shower. At the time we built the house, we thought that we were being practical by buying a ranch and having a shower instead of a tub/shower combo. We didn't know that I was going to lose the ability to walk entirely. Up until now, this hasn't been a problem for my employees but this one is older and lacks much physical strength and endurance. I was drawn to her because of her experience on paper and the unlikelihood that she would have to leave because she was pregnant. I guess I needed to stick with young and fertile?<br /></p><p>As you can imagine, I kept going over what it gone wrong and how to correct it. By the next time I was showered, I had figured out my plan of action and I took control of the situation. I told my aide what were going to do and didn't let her try and figure out how to do it herself. My attitude was this is what has worked in the past for me and this is what you are going to do. I really didn't care that she had 27 years of CNA experience by this point; she only had a few days of Lydia experience. I'm glad to say that everything went without incident today and I think that we should be fine. It amazes me how flexible and patient I have become although I will put up with a lot not to have to go through the process of finding another caregiver. However, dropping me is totally unacceptable and if it happens on a regular basis, then that person needs to find another job. After all, I am paying these people and I want to get my money's worth.</p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-66734427869833882272009-03-03T13:24:00.001-08:002009-03-03T13:24:03.953-08:00Go Orange!<span xmlns=''><p>Yes, I meant "orange." The "Go Red" campaign for women's heart health was in February. This week is MS Awareness Week and I'm doing my part to let the rest of the world know about this awful disease. I know that it's fundamentally wrong, but sometimes I find myself with a case of "disease envy." After all, MS gets a week while breast cancer and heart health get an entire month. Also, there are things that you can do to reduce your risk of breast cancer and heart disease, but there is no way to prevent getting MS currently. Finally, the color from breast cancer is pink and the color for heart health is red. What does MS get stuck with? Orange and I don't know many people who look good in orange. I know that I don't.<br /></p><p>I understand that this whole thing may seem very trivial, but I've given it some thought because the National MS Society recently rolled out an entire new marketing campaign and logo. The majority of the expense for the advertising agency was donated, but making a big change like that has a trickle-down effect on a non-profit organization. The new logo meant web site changes, business card and stationery changes, new rubber bracelets in orange, etc. While the Society has a good track record in terms of overhead versus money supporting the cause, I still question the return on investment of a new visual image campaign. I even had issues with the new slogan, "join the movement." Considering that many living with multiple sclerosis have bladder and bowel dysfunction, the whole movement thing seems kind of cruel. I wonder if any test marketing was done with people who actually had MS.<br /></p><p>So for better or worse, I hope that the whole new marketing campaign brings greater visibility to the disease and increases donations to fund research and support services people with MS and their families. In reality, the goal of these organizations is to make themselves obsolete and I, for one, don't think that can happen soon enough. I guess until then it's going to be "go orange!"</p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-75136288108583566332009-01-23T13:39:00.001-08:002009-01-23T13:39:59.141-08:00No Kidding<span xmlns=''><p>My husband and I do not have children. People think this is because of my disability but we actually didn't really want to have children. My diagnosis finalized this decision. People feel sorry for you when they think that you cannot have children but it's a different story when they learn you didn't want them. After all, normal people want children and there's obviously something wrong with people who feel otherwise.<br /></p><p>I know that in my situation, children would've been a very bad idea. My disease is incompatible with the mommy lifestyle. Granted, I do stay at home but I have to pay somebody to take care of me. I am not physically able to care for a child and I lack the stamina to be with children for any length of time. MS fatigue is real and I usually take a nap after breakfast until at least 10:00 AM. Finally, my body is a serious superfund site of chemicals needed to keep my disease in check. I shudder to think that I might be worse off without them. Basically, I'm saying that I am perfectly content being the aunt of five nieces and nephews with another one on the way. I send them presents, receive pictures and even visit them occasionally. I'm the auntie in the wheelchair who doesn't really do much.<br /></p><p>So, you may be wondering if people with MS can have children? The answer isn't a simple one and really needs to be decided on a case-by-case basis. Women are more likely to have the disease, so there is data on MS and pregnancy. The remarkable thing is that most women do very well during their pregnancy, but experience a relapse five or six months after delivery. This is why female hormones are being studied so closely as potential MS therapy. For that reason, I am glad that some people with my disease are having children. We need everything we can find to fight this disease.<br /></p><p>At lunch today, my aide and I were seated near a table of mommies and their brood of little ones from an infant to four-year olds. They were cute, but what a commotion. I was glad to see them leave. Besides, at least one of them was staring at me the entire time. I just add to keep reminding myself that these children are our future and will eventually be part of the workforce needed to keep my Social Security checks coming. God bless the children!</p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-71955221612818030372009-01-05T13:35:00.001-08:002009-01-05T13:35:12.011-08:00Past Transgressions<span xmlns=''><p>I am not thinking about the new year yet. I have been pondering my past instead, my distant past. The 1980s encompassed my high school and college days and thanks to the social networking tool, FaceBook, I have been reconnecting with people and places from that time. I wouldn't go so far as to say that those were the best days of my life, but they were simpler. Back then, my life was full of possibilities and now it's more inevitability. I am finding it difficult to reconcile my past with my present.<br /></p><p>My problem is that I only want to reminisce with my old friends and acquaintances about the Lydia from the 80s and not the current crippled Lydia with multiple sclerosis (MS). I don't like having to answer the question "what are you doing now?" The answer is a real downer. I was diagnosed in 1997 and my life has pretty much been downhill from there. Kind of awkward, and not a great conversation starter. There's a friendship you might not want to reestablish.<br /></p><p>In a lot of ways, the core of who I am hasn't changed much. I'm still pretty sarcastic with a dry sense of humor. My situation has provided tons of material to feed my cynicism. I understand why people would feel sorry for me, but I'm not looking for pity. The reason I went on FaceBook in the first place was to keep in touch with friends, find old ones and maybe make some new ones. Because I can't work, I miss out on a lot of normal social interaction. Although I have always been a bit of a loner, it was isolation by choice and now I'm just isolated. The online world changes all that. With my laptop, I can participate just like everyone else and no one even needs to know about the MS unless I choose to tell them. <br /></p><p>Now if you'll excuse me, I'll be taking a roll down memory lane.</p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-51985409066625089202008-12-10T13:55:00.001-08:002008-12-10T13:55:45.405-08:00Holi-dazed<span xmlns=''><p>You can't spell Christmas without MS and none of my holidays are ever without MS. Living with a chronic illness means that you and those close to you have to make adjustments every day, even special occasions. Because this is the season of giving, my gift to you are tips and tricks for making it through the holidays with a disease like multiple sclerosis.<br /></p><ol><li>Define what is important for you to have or do. For example, "Christmas is and Christmas without…" This could be baking cookies, decorating a Christmas tree, attending a Christmas concert, etc. <br /></li><li>Figure out how you can have or do those important things in a different way. I was no longer able to decorate my Christmas tree and my husband doesn't like doing it, so I was able to start a new tradition where friends of mine come to my house to help. If I want to go to an evening concert, I make sure to take a nap in the afternoon so I can stay up later.<br /></li><li>Give yourself permission to not be perfect. You may feel that you're letting people down because you can't do everything that used to be able to do, but you need to believe that they'll understand and if they don't, that's their problem. If they're family, you're stuck with them but if they're friends you don't have to continue your friendship.<br /></li><li>Expect to be a little emotional, but mindful of actual depression. It's perfectly normal to find yourself reflecting on previous holidays, comparing your condition. I found myself one year suddenly exhausted putting up the Christmas tree. I had come home from work, gotten the tree out of the box, assembled the tree and was in the process of doing the lights. My legs had given out, so I was sitting on a kitchen stool but I still just couldn't do anything else. It made me cry because the year before I had put up the tree in one evening. If I'd just been satisfied with assembling the tree and leaving the rest for the next day, I would've been fine. The crazy part is that the only one who cared about getting the tree up was me.<br /></li></ol><p>I think that most that will agree that Christmas has gotten far too commercial anyway. We find ourselves slaves to the shopping malls and big-box stores, buying stuff for people because we have to buy them something even though they don't really need anything. Think of MS (it's you're unfortunate enough to have it) as an opportunity to return to what the holidays are really about. I wouldn't go is far as to say that my disease is a gift, but it has forced me to appreciate what I do have at Christmas time and throughout the year. Merry Christmas to all and best wishes for the year ahead.</p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-64157072470329512942008-11-17T13:38:00.001-08:002008-11-17T13:38:01.641-08:00Revenge of the Blog<span xmlns=''><p>I knew that this would happen. I'm actually surprised that it lasted this long. I'm referring to this blog. Like so many other of my post-employment projects, I've lost interest in writing regularly. I have many reasons and excuses for this. The biggest one is that my life is boring and monotonous.<br /></p><p>I am reminded of this as I have been filling out disability paperwork. I have had to answer questions such as "describe your daily activities" and "how does your condition prevent you from caring for yourself." A long time ago, I attended a workshop on applying for disability and they said that you should fill out your paperwork describing your worst day. Even my best day doesn't seem so great anymore. It's pretty depressing to see things laid out that way. I wrote down everything I did from the time I woke up until the time I went to bed. I also included everything that required assistance such as bathing, dressing, grooming and toileting. Basically, I'm useless and helpless. What a combination!<br /></p><p>At my most recent neurologist appointment, my doctor asked me about my frame of mind. Without hesitation I told him that I was really getting tired of having MS. This is the guy who diagnosed me so he knows how long we've been playing this game. Perhaps he's gotten tired of it too? After all, we treated me aggressively from the very beginning but this disease keeps fighting back. One project that I have not abandoned is keeping up with the current research. Amazing breakthroughs are being made in MS treatment and I need to believe that there will be something new and effective out there for me.<br /></p><p>I also guess that I need to carry on with this blog because I've discovered that some people are actually reading it. My message is simple and direct; MS sucks, it's hard to explain, life goes on. If that's helpful to people then perhaps I'm not that useless after all.</p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-73535991048046853212008-09-12T13:45:00.001-07:002008-09-12T13:45:06.901-07:00Chronic Complaint<span xmlns=''><p>Everyone rallied around me when I had my first MS attack and subsequent diagnosis. There were cards, flowers, food, phone calls and visits. Best of all, I got better. I did my physical therapy, occupational therapy and managed to almost get back to the way I was before I went into the hospital. It was a rough time, but now I knew what was wrong with me and I had the tools to keep things under control, or so I thought.<br /></p><p>Over time, I learned what relapsing-remitting MS meant. It could come back whenever and however it wanted. Also, even with medication it's still gotten progressively worse. Having a chronic disease like MS is not like a typical illness or injury; it is not just one incident, but an ongoing problem. For me, there have been times when it has been really bad, but even when I have had an exacerbation and recovered somewhat, it's never as good as it was before I had the attack. This is extremely difficult for me, but it is also hard on my friends and family.<br /></p><p>People are willing and able to help out for a set amount of time, but an ongoing commitment is another story. For example when I've been very sick, people have brought food to the house for me and my husband, but no one brings anything ordinarily. Even when things are "normal" around here, Doug needs to do all the cooking and cleaning in addition to caring for me and on top of working full time. Our situation is very isolating at times. It is inevitable as a couple ages that one spouse will become the caregiver for the other, but not when they are still in their forties.<br /></p><p>So, I am left with a dilemma. On the one hand, I want to be known and remembered for more than my disease but I also want people to stay in touch and check in every once in a while to see how I'm doing. As I said recently to a longtime friend of mine "the novelty of my illness ended long ago." Although my reality has been permanently altered, the majority of my friends, family and acquaintances have moved on to other things. After all, I will be living with MS for a long time to come.</p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-71939792722326685042008-08-20T13:42:00.001-07:002008-08-20T13:42:22.796-07:00Olympic Fever<span xmlns=''><p>You would think that someone like me wouldn't be watching the Olympics, but you would be wrong. Just because I have physical limitations doesn't mean that I don't enjoy watching the athletes compete. Their strength and agility amazes me as it should most people. Let's face it, very few of us can do what they do.<br /></p><p>Another reason I watch the Olympics is because it gives me a break from the routine. I can turn on the TV during the day and watch an event or I can go online to check out scores and see video of events I missed. When my husband comes home from work, I have something to talk about. I tell him if the U.S. got any more medals, the latest controversy, who is doing what when, etc. I follow swimming and gymnastics the most.<br /></p><p>Even when I was still able-bodied, nobody would consider me athletic. However, when I was a little kid my parents enrolled me in swimming and gymnastics. I wasn't very good at either one. In swimming, I was hindered by my poor eyesight and slow reaction time. I was always the last person to dive in when racing and the diving board terrified me because I don't like heights. Gymnastics was even worse. In addition to being naturally klutzy, I was not very flexible. Suffice to say that my gymnastic abilities never went beyond the somersault and the cartwheel.<br /></p><p>My husband is always amazed that for two weeks every two years, I actually watch and talk about sports. Soon enough, football will be on and I will go back to being disinterested. It just doesn't have the same appeal to me as the Olympics and it's been that way since long before I became a crippled champion.</p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-43940110654144031552008-08-08T13:38:00.001-07:002008-08-08T13:38:33.769-07:00Able to be Stable<span xmlns=''><p>I had an appointment with one of my neurologists this week. Unlike most patients, I have two working on my case. Neurologist A has been with me since the beginning and he knows me and my idiosyncrasies. We've been through a lot together. Neurologist B is a newer edition to my team. She did a fellowship in MS and she offers a fresh perspective on my situation. Between the two of them, I am seen every three months and that ensures that any problems are caught early while giving me the benefit of a longer time between observations. So, the appointment I had this week was with Neurologist B and she had not seen me in six months.<br /></p><p>For you lucky people who have never had an appointment with a neurologist, it's a little different than your average visit with a primary care physician. First, you are asked a lot of questions about what has been going on with you. The first time I saw neurologist, I wondered if we were just going to talk the whole time or if the doctor was actually going to do something like examine me. Now I know that they are checking cognitive ability and your state of mind. When I am having an exacerbation, I can't hold a conversation. As an experienced patient, I come prepared with my own set of questions and concerns. Not only does it help facilitate the conversation, it also helps me to remember everything I wanted to ask. It's a way to maximize your appointment time.<br /></p><p>After Neurologist B and I finished the Q & A, she said, "let's take a look at you." Then, it was time for me to do my tricks. It started with "follow my finger with your eyes" and then "smile" and "stick out your tongue and say ah." After that performance, it was time for the feats of strength. For the first feat, I bent my arms at the elbows with my hands on my chest, raising my arms like wings while the neurologist tries to push them down. I then pointed my elbows to the ground holding my arms close to the body while the neurologist tried to extend them. I also tried to push the neurologist away from the same position. There was a time I would do similar things with my legs but since they don't really work anymore, we forgo that.<br /></p><p>After that strange little work out, Neurologist B gave me some good news; she thought I was stable (physically at least). In the world of progressive disease, it's the best you can ask for. You aren't getting better, but you're not getting any worse. My assignment is to keep doing what I'm doing, taking all my drugs and always being sensitive to any changes in my condition. Hopefully, in another three months Neurologist A will pronounce me "stable" too.</p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-67354524502672865432008-08-01T13:47:00.001-07:002008-08-01T13:47:49.837-07:00Exercise in Futility<span xmlns=''><p>There are so many things in my life that I have no control over and because of that I like to troubleshoot potential problems before they happen. Yesterday, I checked my calendar to see if I had any doctors' appointments next week and saw that I had two. I then went to my health insurance company's web site to make sure that all of my referrals and authorizations were up-to-date. I discovered that the authorization to fill my Baclofen pump had expired, so I called that doctor's office to let them know . At this point, I should explain that most patients wouldn't take the time or even know how to check something like this.<br /></p><p>Anyway, I called my doctor's office and explained my problem. I quickly realized that the person on the other end of the line had no idea what I was talking about. She told me that I would need to get a new referral from my primary care physician. I responded that she was wrong; the specialist's office needs to get authorization for a particular procedure. I added that I had been going through this process since my pump was implanted back in 2002. It was challenging, but I stood my ground while keeping my cool. In the end, that phone call accomplished nothing but I had come up with a strategy.<br /></p><p>My next call was to my insurance company. Once again, I explained the situation and included the conversation that I had just had with the office. The member services representative I spoke with confirmed that I was right; the office needed to call for authorization to do the refill. Since there was no way I was calling those people again, I asked the man who was helping me to call on my behalf. He agreed and offered to do it right then if I didn't mind holding. Since being on hold is a large part of my existence, I had no problem saying "fine." The poor guy ended up leaving a message for the person who handles insurance and he promised to follow up with them in the afternoon. I should be okay because my appointment is not until next Wednesday.<br /></p><p>It's times like these that remind me why I no longer work. I cannot imagine having to make all these phone calls on my lunch break or having them returned while I am trying to concentrate on something else. I must have spent at least an hour this morning trying to sort this out and I'll probably have to spend more time next week on the same issue. I read that there are growing number of companies and individuals specializing in patient advocacy. For a fee, someone will keep track of your insurance and medical billing to make sure that everything works smoothly. I don't know how much they charge, but if they have to deal with people like me that it's hard earned money.</p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-36507060046387123502008-07-23T14:02:00.001-07:002008-07-23T14:02:18.295-07:00Summer MuSings<span xmlns=''><p>It's summer vacation season and even though I am on a "permanent vacation," I still seem to slow down in the summer. The idea of writing a cohesive blog entry does not appeal to me, so I will give you some random thoughts then I have been pondering lately.<br /></p><ul><li>Can a paraplegic be a standup comic? Could they sue for discrimination?<br /></li><li>There are too many active words in our culture and I feel left out. A person is supposed to "stand up for themselves," or "stand on their own two feet." Then there is that song, "You'll Never Walk Alone." Walk alone? How about walk at all?<br /></li><li>Why do people insist on talking to me very loudly and slowly? Yes, my legs don't work but my hearing and cognitive ability are just fine.<br /></li><li>If I asked my doctor about every prescription I see advertised, he wouldn't have time to actually examine me.<br /></li><li>Why do the frail and elderly always try and help open a door when the perfectly fit people parade around as if they don't even see the person in the wheelchair?<br /></li><li>Why does a fertilized egg left over from a fertility treatment have more of a right to life than I do? That's basically what opponents of stem cell research are saying.<br /></li><li>Is it fair that people with MS often have to choose their drug therapy based on what they can afford? Shouldn't every one be able to access the drugs that benefit them the most? Does that make me a crazy liberal for thinking that?<br /></li><li>Should I feel guilty about wearing disposable, paper underwear? Will the environmentalists insist that I wear cloth diapers?<br /></li><li>Daycare for children may be expensive, but daycare for adults is often nonexistent.<br /></li><li>A pessimist is never disappointed.</li></ul></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-1191434433252009302008-07-03T13:36:00.001-07:002008-07-03T13:36:08.565-07:00Potty People Parking<span xmlns=''><p>When I was a little kid, I thought that the universal handicapped symbol was a person sitting on the toilet. It made sense to me that someone who needed to go the bathroom required a parking space close to the building. Now, I have my own tag that matches the parking spaces and I wish that my only problem was having an urgent need to get to a restroom. Being a "potty person" isn't all that great.<br /></p><p>It seems that whenever I pull into my special spot, there is a senior citizen glaring at me. "How dare she park in that spot? She isn't even old." To make matters worse, I no longer drive so my young aide jumps out of the car and goes to the trunk to get out my wheelchair. Only when they see me being lifted out of the car and into my chair to they stop staring. I make it obvious that I have been watching them watch me and I hope that they feel badly now.<br /></p><p>It used to be even worse for me when I was still driving and using a cane or a walker. Back then, people would do more than just stare. Old men would bang on my window until I rolled it down and then they would inform me that I was parking in a handicap spot and that was illegal. When I showed them my parking tag, they told me that it must not be mine. The first time this happened to me, I was rather upset. The second time, I was angry. I told the old coot that that ad was indeed mine. I had filled out the proper paperwork, had it signed by my doctor and paid my money to the DMV. The reason that I had the tag was between me and my physician and it was none of his damn business what the reason was.<br /></p><p>When I was still walking, I needed to park close because big box stores and the grocery store require a lot of walking. I couldn't count on being able to use one of the store's electric carts. They would either all be in use, not be charged or I would have to go through the same confrontation I had for a parking space. Now that I'm on wheels, I need the extra room that a handicap spot provides. There's a reason they have those blue hatch marks between spaces and my pet peeve is when someone parks it in that extra space. You would think that a fellow "potty person" would be a little more thoughtful.<br /></p><p>You and I have seen people parking in handicap spots who seem to be perfectly fine, and perhaps they are. However, many with handicap tags have them for a reason and able-bodied people should respect that. Please let the "potty people" have their parking spaces. We have enough other problems to handle.</p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-74713595857044895902008-06-20T10:47:00.001-07:002008-06-20T10:47:31.335-07:00No Weigh<span xmlns=''><p>When you go to the doctor's office, the nurse asks you to step up on the scale so she can get your weight. When I go to the doctor's office, the nurse asks me to step up on the scale and I tell her that I can't. This always perplexes them, although I doubt that I am the first person to have this problem. They usually have a walker surrounding the scale to help someone who is unsteady on their feet, but that's it. Occasionally, a nurse will actually say aloud that I am too big for the pediatric scale in their office. (that's the one that is part of the table) Realizing that there is no way that I can be weighed in their office, they ask me if I know how much I weigh. I provide them with a number, but it is now three or four years old. That just wasn't good enough for administering chemotherapy. I had to get weighed.<br /></p><p>So, the doctor wrote me a prescription for me to go to the hospital and be weighed. I was told just to go to the main registration desk, show them the prescription and it would be taken care of. Knowing how things work in the real world, I was skeptical. Unfortunately, I was also right. The woman at the reception desk had no idea what I was asking for and told me that she didn't think they did that. She then suggested that I try down in the emergency room. My aide pushed me all the way down to the emergency room where we were again told that they didn't do that there. This person even added that she didn't remember ever getting that request in the 20 years she had worked at the hospital. We were sent back to the registration desk. This time the person at the desk give us a phone number that my doctor's office could call to arrange for me to be weighed. I had my aide make the phone call because I knew that my patience was wearing thin. I am thankful that that office was sympathetic to our plight, promised they would get it taken care of and told us not to leave until we had gotten what we came there for. We ended up returning to the emergency room, but this time someone met us and brought us back to a room with a hospital bed that had a scale. My aide transferred me to the bed, the nurses weighed me, I was transferred back to my chair and then wheeled out the door. All that it only took a hour of my time and a little of what was left of my dignity.<br /></p><p>I resent being treated like a second class citizen because I can't stand. For medical personnel, very few are empathetic to my situation. They view and treat me like a problem that they don't want to deal with, not separating the person from their condition. I don't want to be difficult. I just want the same care that any patient deserves. Wouldn't it be more productive if staff brought up problems they were having dealing with the disabled to their supervisors? With the population living longer and a giant bunch of aging baby boomers, limited mobility problems like mine will become more common. Healthcare should lead the way in accommodations instead of bringing up the rear. I hope that someday when I go to the doctor's office someone will say "we can get your weight right here." It sounds simple enough.</p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2555244542745147074.post-4076200572710540452008-06-14T11:07:00.001-07:002008-06-14T11:07:40.118-07:00Aging Gracefully<span xmlns=''><p>People who were diagnosed with MS 20 years ago or more were told to lie down and wait for death. Funny thing is many of those people are still around. Some of them are actually better off than I am without the benefit of the disease modifying medications that I have taken from the beginning. Just more evidence that this disease varies widely from person to person.<br /></p><p>The one thing that these veterans with MS and I have in common is that we've had to deal with issues that most people do not have to face until old age. For example, I was only 30 years old when I had to use a four-point cane after an acute exacerbation. Later, I had a walker and then a wheelchair. I had to learn to think of these objects as tools and not symbols of my declining condition. The same acceptance process was necessary with my bladder issues. I needed to make the decision that it was preferable to wear paper underwear to staying home where I would always have access to a bathroom. People often tell me about a parent or grandparent who doesn't want to make the kinds of accommodations that I already have. While I understand their desire to stay independent, they ultimately become a prisoner of their own stubbornness. Plus, I don't feel badly for someone in there 80s who is having difficulty walking or controlling their bodily functions. I've already been through all those things and you don't find be complaining (except on my blog).<br /></p><p>I even read an article in the MS Society's Magazine several years ago about this very subject. The article told me what I already knew, people who have lived with MS are better prepared to deal with the natural process of aging. Taking that into consideration, I really am "differently abled." </p></span>Lydiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07026256770408817966noreply@blogger.com0